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They never are. The you I still know is etched in every detail of my memory. I still search for you in a sea of people, though it feels impossible that you'd be here. And yet, not once or twice but countless times, I try to make sure we might be allowed a meeting that could actually happen.</p>\n<p>Even the most beautiful places never quite let go of you. Once again, the word \"beautiful\" refuses to come apart from you. I remember that sweet smile and that small, upturned nose of yours. Every step I take in a new place pushes me to write about you there. I want you to always be part of my plans, whether it's a trip to somewhere beautiful or just a visit to the coffee shop near where you grew up.</p>\n<p>You still hold the trophy, your name clearly engraved as the winner of all my beautiful plans. You have never turned into anyone else. I still know that sweet face and that cute nose exactly as they were the last time we met. And I always pray that someday, somehow, we will be given a meeting that feels more possible.</p>","excerpt":"With everyone I meet, I check whether they might be you in another form. They never are. 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